Trusting God When You Don’t Understand by Megan S


This time last year, I watched the God-placed dream in my heart fall apart right before my very eyes. If you’re facing disappointment, you are not alone. If your life doesn’t look like what you had hoped it would, keep reading.

Last December, on the day after Christmas, I packed my bags and moved from Louisiana to North Carolina to pursue a job in ministry. I moved without a job lined up, but had high hopes that God was going to provide. I knew it would be a struggle, but I had no idea what I would be up against.

For months I felt alone, and I fought every single day to find purpose. I knew God had called me to step out of my comfort zone, but after a month of unemployment, I began to question everything.

I remember questioning why God had brought me here. I was mad at Him. I didn’t know why I didn’t have community, why I couldn’t get a job in ministry and if He even cared.

Alone in my apartment as I cried my heart out, the Holy Spirit began to comfort me. I felt God calling me to trust Him. He was asking me to believe He was good even if it felt like He was taking away everything good in my life.

The very next day, a potential job opportunity fell in to my lap. The job was for a position as a web designer at one of the leading marketing and sales agencies in the country. This wasn’t ministry. This wasn’t what I thought God had planned for me, but something in my heart leapt. I knew God was in this, so I decided to apply. Let me just preface this and say I did not confidently apply for this position. I was nervous and struggling deeply with insecurity as I submitted my application. I was NOT a web designer. I was a graphic designer, and I felt like I was being foolish for putting myself up against some of the best designers out there, but I took a leap of faith.

One year later, I find myself today as a web designer, and I know I’m exactly where God called me to be. Looking back, I had no idea that I would need the skills of a web designer to walk in my purpose, but God knew. Recently I opened an online store, Good Things Co. My store sells products that donate to Show Hope, an organization committed to caring for orphans and funding adoptions. Without my marketing and web design experience, I would have never been able to make this online store come to life. Adoption has been something I was passionate about since I was a young girl, and now I get to do something more fulfilling than I could ever imagine.

Friend, I do not know where you are at today, but what I do know is that God is actively making a way for you. I do not know what reality you are facing, and I do not know what sadness lies in your heart, but I do know that whatever you choose to lay at the feet of Jesus will be used to do great things. We serve a God who is bigger than any reality we could ever face. I challenge you to dream a dream that’s too big for a single-handed victory, and then team up with God because He’s too big for defeat. It’s okay to not know how things will work out in the end. Leave a little room for God to work. Obedience to His voice will never lead you astray because there is no such thing as regret in the will of God. You were created to do good things, and He’s got your life’s plans written down in advance (Ephesians 2:10). So walk in freedom, trust Him, and laugh at the days to come. God’s got you, and you are not forgotten.


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1 Comment

  1. I. Love. This. Thank you so much for sharing. <3

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