Grace upon Grace by Madeline P

Grace

I had an idol in my life.  An idol that consumed my every thought.  An idol I worshipped daily. An idol that, for a time, became my identity.  This idol was my boyfriend.

As a young woman, it’s not hard to not get wrapped up in the thought of marriage and have that be the focal point of life.  Many of us have a desire to get married.  But if we don’t know how to balance Christ, our King, and an earthly relationship with a man, one of the two relationships can get destroyed.  And that’s what happened to me.

My boyfriend of two years ended the relationship.  But really, it wasn’t my high-school boyfriend who ended it because ultimately, it was my King, my Creator and my Heavenly Father who broke that relationship.  He was trying to show me something in the midst of the heartbreak, which was hard for me to understand because everything I once knew was gone.  My heart was ripped out of my chest.  I couldn’t go a day without breaking down and I constantly found myself dwelling on that heartbreak.

There always seems to be lessons learned when everything once normal, comfortable, and familiar is stripped away.  And this situation especially, hit me hard with a very important lesson brought about by a quote that has stuck with me.

“I get the invitation every morning when I wake up to actually live a life of complete engagement, a life of whimsy, a life where love does. It doesn’t come in an envelope. It’s ushered by a sunrise, the sound of a bird, or the smell of coffee drifting lazily from the kitchen. It’s the invitation to actually live, to fully participate in this amazing life for one more day.” – Love Does, Bob Goff

To realize that every single morning I can choose to live life completely engaged, filled with love, and with the opportunity to act out that love towards others wrecked me.  It’s simple, yet somehow I so often seem to forget this.  I love how Bob Goff describes living life as an invitation, because it’s true, I have to really choose to fully participate, to fully love, and it’s not always easy, especially in the midst of heartbreak.  But these wise words have reminded me that the Lord has me here for a purpose, that I want to be fully present and that I want to fully love whoever God puts in my path.

Even though there were moments once where I really missed my boyfriend, I learned that my identity cannot be found in that relationship and that there is immense joy when I fully engage and immerse myself in Christ.  Being fully present is hard when I’m adjusting to newness and unfamiliarity, but I’m beginning to realize that there is so much life and love happening right around me.  And if I don’t accept the invitation every morning to live a life of full engagement, I just might miss it.

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3 Comment

  1. I love this so much. Thank you for sharing and being vulnerable!

  2. Tay says: Reply

    So good! You’re awesome!!! Thank you ❤✌🏾

  3. Belinda says: Reply

    You have opened my eyes <3

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