When the Mask Comes Off by Emily D

Brokeness

When I was seven years old I decided that I was saved. In all honesty, I didn’t understand what that meant. I couldn’t understand that salvation was a relationship and not just a decision. I was “saved” because I didn’t want to go to hell, not because I was in pursuit of a relationship with Jesus Christ. I have now learned that one of the hardest concepts to understand is how lost you can be when you think that you have been found.

The summer before fifth grade I was raped by a family member. That broke me into a million pieces. I was at a point in my life where I never thought I could be put together again. I put on masks so no one knew what was truly going on. I hid my pain and my brokenness under the mask of a carefree child. The truth was that I went through so much pain in that time of my life and I hid all of it. As I grew up, I began to understand the weight of what I had gone through and things got worse. Eventually, my family changed churches and I was introduced to the true beauty of Jesus Christ and I asked him into my heart.

Ever since that day I have continued to grow in my uncontrollable love for the Creator. I am learning that through everything I have been through, He was and is with me through it all. While I was dead in my sin and the brokenness that sin had given me, He loved me despite my unworthiness.

We were broken and torn apart by our sin, but Christ, loved us. He loved us in our brokenness, in our hurt, in our struggles, in our pain. He is the healer. We were dead and He gave us life. He puts us back together again. We were in darkness and He gave us light.

 “The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit.” Psalm 34:18

Chase the one who is chasing your heart, no matter what you have been through or what you have done. God wants you to come to him as you are. He renews your heart, soul, and mind with His love. When you are struggling, He wants you to give it to Him. When you come to Him, He will make you new.

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” Matthew 11:28

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2 Comment

  1. Scott stearns says: Reply

    So proud of you Em! You are a positive influence and can help so many others with your perspective and knowledge of Gods sweet grace. You Go girl !

  2. Necia Smith says: Reply

    You are one special girl Emily and I am proud to have you as a friend and as a sister in Christ Jesus!!!
    Love Necia

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